CAUTION: YOU ARE ENTERING A MIND OF A STRANGER.
I got sucked into life... Take that back. More like pushed out into life. Haha. Crude. Being up late is when I do most of my thinking. I think I should start writing everything out. Showing my life. Selling my stuff. Forgetting about finding that perfect girl and focus on things that are for sure. Like failure. I know I'm going to fail. And succeeding. I know I'm going to succeed. There are only two outcomes in everything. Failing or succeeding. Great. What's my word count? Did I write enough to make a difference. Probably not. Darn. If this were a sheet of paper I'd probably just rip it up already, thank God for computer screens. I wonder how long I could write before I just fell asleep. Not very long. 1000 words maybe? Longer than most of my school essays. It is so much easier to rant on and on about what is on my mind than to write about one boring subject for school. Here we go. Or I go. Because no one would go with me. Delve into what is my mind. To most people it would probably be a bore, but to myself it's the most interesting thing in the world. Kind of like when I was watching 30 Rock today and Jack said he wondered what it would be like to see the world from Kenneth's eyes and it proceeded to change to Kenneth's perspective and show Jack as a Jim Henson puppet singing all the words that came through his mouth... Everything was so happy. Sometimes I see life through eyes that are similar. Lately though it has been a drag. More pessimism than optimism. Which is a shame because I'm a Christian. One would think that with a God as great as mine I would be happy and joyful all the time, but the truth is that sometimes Satan gets you down and you look lost as you ignore/are blind to anything and everything that is calling to you for you to come back and reach out your hand to theirs. Or maybe it's so dark you forgot you even had a life up in Joyland. Pure darkness. Pierced by the light. God help me. I find this blog to be very therapeutic. Now to another part of my mind...
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Sometimes I envy other people. It's usually not because of the stuff they have, but instead the stuff they have. Not they're possessions, but what they possess. People mature, and many of them as they mature acquire very attractive personality traits. Sometime this builds me up and gives me hope. Other times it makes me feel inferior or shy. How could I ever live up to a person like that? But I must always remember, regardless of how I feel that my identity is in Christ. I don't need to live up to that. For I am different and God is shaping and moulding me into a different person then they.
Everything comes back to the God I love. Which sometimes I don't live my life in the way I should. Anger and Jealousy, Annoyance and rage. Things like these take over my mind and my body and I am too weak to fight back and too stubborn to ask for help from friends or even more importantly, God. Wasting my life. That is what the past few months have been. And I'm not talking about getting a job or doing things society tells you to do, even though I probably should get a job. I haven't been making a difference for the Kingdom. I feel empty and kind of pointless and cruddy. That's because I know my purpose, but have been ignoring it. Smooth move. I just would love to be immersed in the beauty and love that is my God and Savior, Jesus Christ, but I feel like I lack the tools to do so. God save me.
Showing posts with label Of Men and Angels. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Of Men and Angels. Show all posts
3/15/2011
A Blog of Momentous Proportions
So I thought it would be kind of cool to blog thoughts and life experiences. I figured I enjoy typing a little more than I did writing, so what the heck! I think one of the biggest things about doing this is that I need to keep up with it, maybe even make things interesting so people will actually read what I type, maybe I'll be able to make a difference in someone's life.
So the first thing I needed was a name for my blog. The name was inspired by 1 Corinthians 13:1 and also the name of an album by the band "The Rocket Summer" also inspired by the same verse.
"If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am a noisy gong or a clanging cymbal. And if I have prophetic powers, and understand all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have all faith, so as to remove mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. If I give away all I have, and if I deliver up my body to be burned, but have not love, I gain nothing. Love is patient and kind; love does not envy or boast; it is not arrogant or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; it does not rejoice at wrongdoing, but rejoices with the truth. Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things." (1 Cor. 13:1-7)
This is what drives me, I do not just follow religion, but filling relationship with my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ.
Another thing that bothers me is the dismissal of religion, I hear many Christians say, "Oh, I'm not religious, but I do have a relationship with Jesus", without thinking what religion really is. So I took the liberty of looking up the definition of Religion and think about what it actually means to be religious, a healthy type of religious of course.
According to Wikipedia, "Religion is a belief of some superhuman power or powers, in particular a god or gods, which usually involve obedience, reverence, and worship; and as part of a system which defines a code of living, especially as a way of achieving spiritual or material improvement"
Religion is a belief. So my question is why so many christians decide to write off being religious altogether. Why can't christians state that they are religious and also have a deep relationship with the living and breathing God that created the universe? If anybody can answer this for me, how exactly we came to this, please tell me.
So what is it called when people say that we focus too much on religion?
I firmly believe that is when we focus too much on the law, and attempt to follow God's impossible standards to a T. This can leave someone feeling guilty and empty, with the thought that everything they do is wrong or maybe even stupid. Too much Law. Not enough Grace. The Grace of God, Unmerited Favor. Knowing that God will forgive us, no matter how wrong or "unusual" our sin can be. What we need is Grace. Among the most important things.
-Logan "Nogal" Welliver
So the first thing I needed was a name for my blog. The name was inspired by 1 Corinthians 13:1 and also the name of an album by the band "The Rocket Summer" also inspired by the same verse.
"If I speak in the tongues of men and of angels, but have not love, I am a noisy gong or a clanging cymbal. And if I have prophetic powers, and understand all mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have all faith, so as to remove mountains, but have not love, I am nothing. If I give away all I have, and if I deliver up my body to be burned, but have not love, I gain nothing. Love is patient and kind; love does not envy or boast; it is not arrogant or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; it does not rejoice at wrongdoing, but rejoices with the truth. Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things." (1 Cor. 13:1-7)
This is what drives me, I do not just follow religion, but filling relationship with my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ.
Another thing that bothers me is the dismissal of religion, I hear many Christians say, "Oh, I'm not religious, but I do have a relationship with Jesus", without thinking what religion really is. So I took the liberty of looking up the definition of Religion and think about what it actually means to be religious, a healthy type of religious of course.
According to Wikipedia, "Religion is a belief of some superhuman power or powers, in particular a god or gods, which usually involve obedience, reverence, and worship; and as part of a system which defines a code of living, especially as a way of achieving spiritual or material improvement"
Religion is a belief. So my question is why so many christians decide to write off being religious altogether. Why can't christians state that they are religious and also have a deep relationship with the living and breathing God that created the universe? If anybody can answer this for me, how exactly we came to this, please tell me.
So what is it called when people say that we focus too much on religion?
I firmly believe that is when we focus too much on the law, and attempt to follow God's impossible standards to a T. This can leave someone feeling guilty and empty, with the thought that everything they do is wrong or maybe even stupid. Too much Law. Not enough Grace. The Grace of God, Unmerited Favor. Knowing that God will forgive us, no matter how wrong or "unusual" our sin can be. What we need is Grace. Among the most important things.
-Logan "Nogal" Welliver
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